Days of preparation can sometimes be very full and emotionally draining in addition to the physical. As encouraged by many dear friends who have walked this road, David and I have made a priority of being in the good book every morning, more so than ever before even. We understand it is crucial for our hearts and minds to be watered well in the days ahead. I was reading this morning: And everyone who thus hopes in Him purifies himself as He is pure.
Many things have been "demanding" on our trust these days. In many facets, we feel that more than ever, our trust is being refined and tested. Not because he is testing us necessarily, because he knows where we stand. But we have come to find that he might test so that WE can know where we are and what areas are weak. Hoping in Him makes us pure. But what does it really look like to hope that way? Asking for help to hope and trust is necessary. But even beyond that? I was convicted today that it is an attitude and mental shift. Instead of trying to hope and trust (and not doing it really, then getting frustrated at the cycle that doesn't seem to break), filling anxious or distrustful thoughts with praise. Praise for the control he has. Praise that I do not have control- over anything (because that would literally be chaos). Praise for what he has done and truth. This acknowledges my lack of control and the fact that truly, deep down, I am grateful that I do not have control. It would be such a limited and false illusion of control anyway. Replacing an attitude of anxiousness with gratefulness through praise over these things. Such an ongoing lesson to learn. Grateful for his patience with me. He wants to write my story. He wants to write yours, friend.
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